Bitter unrequiteds!
Cowardly liar! How I\'ve
Braved two months of your
Yellow uncertain deceit just
To hear obvious: repelled!
Through odious insight and
Faces afflicted with greened
Excuse have I tried for truth!
But in the stead of right I
Was wronged for sparing. If
You had told unsaid through
Torrents of understood guilt
I would not feel violated
Of pride for my being, or my
Heart of other half.
How simple it would be
To allow this stain on my
Confidence linger to fretting!
It would be a grave joy to
Wallow in sullen memory of
You and the other! Him! Liar!
How you crossed me with
Your month-long procrastinate!
Day every I wake on breath sordid of mistake;
Its eyes walls and ceilings of environs young;
Legs and arms roads and paths to my commons;
Its heart a college unchallenging; memories sights
Ivy. On day every I repent and ask pity on potential
Covered. I ask for strength from nothing to be all.
On wakes every I wipe stick from eyes to shuffle for
My mirror years many. Disgust and regret sear chest
Internal looking on silvered glass, friends past must
Look at room\'s mate with glee unappreciated at time
Same\'d. Despair from heart\'s mind fills Envy Blind;
Repetitioned of others\' talents early to flourishing.
Even in jealousy, g
Grass grows on shoulders of yours, Further Beach.
Dwelling in stembeds your\'s lay gnats by annoyance
And fleas by irritation. Held by your grains papered
Bark stands buried, and holds home to mosses and
Molds winds and waters brought. You have grass
Unkempt, and that makes yours further from mine.
And on beach yours, Further, I see the humorous
Cacophony of waves you call. If there was sight
Laughable any would be that. Whitecaps to none of
Them! And waves fish-barren they are! Your docks
Hurricanes turned havens aren\'t even with fish! But
This is the way you want things; further from mine.
Things unusual I appreciated so
During my struggle with thought original,
A debutant, well past prime, much past ripe,
Perhaps now rotten, approached me with
Question. \"Boy!\" She tore grey-skied gust
With voice hoarsed and anguished. Words
Forward and demeaning sprought, but none
Realized. I followed the eternal sinking sand
Farther. Question me like? Then follow, hag.
\"Boy!\", she gagged. My pivot was mistake for
Muse and Sight crippled with pity. On my Eye\'s
Peak was a Sunday dress too ruined for wearing.
Her blue lips held slimmed cigarette slow-burning.
Her skin in splotch, her fingernails discolored held
Tobacco\'s filter caked with red too you
Reflections shallowed by my blink-long age
Lean wishings mine to years higher loathed.
Experiences I look toward as I tip to sage;
Time is too long to wait for wisdom clothed
By trips and falls and walks brisked to sprint
Instead of books and stories lessons inferred.
Nothing in deep meaning, the regrets in print,
Has had the virtues transcendent transferred
Nor the advice dusty but pertinent with truth
Seeped into manners everyday, no success.
Instead, the unkempt will be labeled uncouth,
And their failures and downfalls meet digress.
How I want my new eyes to keep your shine,
And with your past, and my permit, take mine.
I wake up, and
I cannot find my watch.
My watch has been stolen.
My watch has dismembered itself.
I can see the links spread,
And the self-charging head
Standing still, smirking.
Does it hate me?
It's slithered in a crawlspace
Hiding itself from my wrist
In a practical joke.
It knows I depend on it.
It's not funny.
It has plenty of places to hide.
Wait, my friend borrowed my watch.
Needed it for a trip.
She never has the time,
Or the decency,
Or the courtesy.
Another friend pawned it for money.
Not for gas,
Not for rent,
But for beer money,
And a ganja stint.
I left it at my girlfrien
Traveling on a Greyhound bus,
At some point in between,
We picked up three Bubbas
And they sat in front of me.
We rolled over jagged hills,
And I was struck by what I saw.
"I have never seen anything
So drastically high," I said.
"It's no prize, I live here."
Then night fell, and we curved
Around downtown, so one said,
"Look at that lit-up place."
"I've lived there," I said.
He knew what I meant, even
When they saw my mountains
And I watched their city.